Eye have had a bad year!

Here’s an update before I can hopefully just concentrate on trying to relax and enjoy Christmas. Latest hospital check-up confirms that I have a manky cornea in my right eye, but left one (my only sight) is showing hints of it too scarily enough. It’s extremely dry and bumpy which results in the lack of vision. I’ve to absolutely flood it with special drops throughout the day with the hope of helping it improve and not needing a transplant one day. I’ve not been the luckiest person this year, so not building my hopes up but at least I’m not back in hospital just yet. My wedding is now 6.5 months away (so much still to do which for Miss stupidly organised is just surreal!) so hope things improve soooo badly. Everyone showing their concern and love this year has helped me so much through this and I don’t know what I would have done without that.

I’ve had dry eyes ever since I got Lasik surgery at Optical Express last year. This however, is so extreme it’s like blinking over a disposable contact lens that’s shrivelled up. I seriously want this to improve and not having a 2nd eye is utterly shite (5 months now which I can’t believe!). My surgeon said this severe dryness and the 3 Retinal Detachments are completely different problems, but one wouldn’t have happened without the other. I’m investigating further into the cause of all this as I can’t have anyone else ruin their life like this, but I need to give my head a break for a bit as it’s consumed it for so long. Thoughts of what I’ve been through sadden me so much and I’ll never forget it.

I’ve never had problems like this in my life so just hope this nightmare stops. I have to be aware of detachments as always, but please let me have my eyes back for my wedding so I see who I’m marrying and he doesn’t let himself go to pot!

So, eyedrops like crazy, trying out the best waterproof eyeliner and mascara (Blinc wins so far!), and hope to smile and have fun over Xmas as it’s something I feel I aint done in a long time. Then, all going well let 2011 start without me worrying out my eyes (hopefully just making music and planning for my wedding!). Goodness knows what will happen as I’m a long way off being able to see anything but one letter on a test chart, but I can only try.